On Womanhood. . . Saturday, Jan 26 2008 

     One thing I have been thinking of lately which has never really been in the forefront of my mind is how being a woman in todays society affects behavior.  I live in Columbia, Missouri, which is really a very safe town to live in, but is a college town with the frats and the parties and creepers doing who knows what.

I’ve noticed if I’m walking anywhere on campus at night or downtown, my cellphone is in my hand and I am at least ready to call someone, or I am talking to someone, in hopes to deter anyone who might want to take advantage of a female walking alone at night.  I most definitely try not to be walking alone at night at all, but when the sun goes down at 6 pm, it makes it difficult!

This fall, I read the book “Irresistible Revolution,” by Shane Claibourne, and in the book at one point he wrote about sleeping on the streets of Philadelphia with his homeless friends.  My heart dropped as I thought of how that would not be something I could/should do, solely because I am female.

Today a friend and I were talking, and she mentioned that she doesn’t usually drink, or get drunk, and that some times it is because she is hanging out with her guy friends and although she trusts them, she just doesn’t think it is wise for her as a female to get clobbered while they are.

When talking about inequalities in life, I find myself just saying, “Life’s not fair,” a lot of times, but that is a pretty cynical reaction.  Change can happen, it’s just hard.  Treat the women around you with respect.  They deserve it.

“The Devil Came on Horseback” thoughts Friday, Jan 25 2008 

Tonight, I went to an event my church has where we watch a movie, and then afterward we discuss the movie and how it relates to culture.  Christians aren’t supposed to live in this bubble, and we try and emphasize that.

Tonights film was “The Devil Came on Horseback,” which is about the tragedy going on in Darfur.  I went in not really knowing a lot about the situation in Darfur, nothing really.  The discussion afterward is what triggered my deepest thoughts.  Rob, who leads the discussion, commented on how there is this conflict in American culture where we want to just go in and destroy the bad guys, and where we kind of wonder if we should be policing the world.  I know that is something I really have struggled and still struggle with.

If military action is taken, and we go in and “destroy the bad guys,” there still is very little infrastructure set up in the country to help people get back on their feet after such an enormous catastrophe.  Unfortunatly, even though American’s have the resources to help set that up, most of us would not make the sacrifices to do so.  Yet, is it really America’s job to take care of the world?  Where do you draw the line of us using our resources to help other countries?  Why are our soldiers dying in other peoples wars?

We go into other countries with completly different social structures than ours, different histories, different religions, different everythings, and try to set up the same or similar government and then wonder why the people don’t embrace and love democracy as much as we do.  I am by no means anti-democracy, it’s a good form of government, I just don’t think it is a universally good form of government.

Sometimes I feel so cynical.  I know that even if we get rid of one evil leader, another will spring up in a matter of days, maybe in the same place, maybe in another.  Humanitarian aid will not lead to people being better towards each other, nor will military action, sanctions, trials or ridding the area of “the bad guys.”  The only thing that can and will make the world a better place is found in the person of Jesus Christ.  Only through knowing and emulating His love, care, mercy, compassion, and justice can the world be better than what it is now.

I have raised up so many questions in this post and no full answers.  What do we do about Darfur?  How do we react to huge crises like this?  Honestly, I have no idea.  I will however continue to think and pray and search for peace and restoration.  I will love those around me here in Columbia, no matter who they are.  When confronted with violence or injustices in my backyard, I will fight.